So, I always go into endeavors with high hopes of success. This time, I prepared myself for the possibility that success might not come quickly. I have been really excited to jump in head first, and it's gone quite well. I have become pretty overwhelmed, but it's a good feeling.
I went to school to be a teacher. I love teaching so much. In school one of my favorite classes was Classroom Management. As I got into the classroom, I realized that classroom management was actually where I had a lot of trouble. Well, as I have gotten married and started a family, that applies to life as well. I am an OCD person living an anti-OCD life, married to an anti-OCD husband, with 3 very anti-OCD children. I feel like I'm falling apart sometimes. I was warned by a fellow teacher turned photographer to not let this take over my life. I understand her advice now much more than I did at the time.
I get strength every Wednesday and Sunday going to church. I realized I am not dedicating as much time as I should daily to prayer and Bible study. If I don't start doing better about that, then nothing else will fall into place. Starting today that will change.
I am currently managing Addie's (my younger daughter) softball team, and I start coaching Carlea's (my older daughter) cheer team this week. I am on the parent committee for both my daughters' classes, and have my 3-year-old son Lincoln 95% of the time throughout this crazy hectic life. I am BLESSED with family that will watch Lincoln for me at the drop of a hat, a husband who can be my biggest critic (which isn't the worst thing) but also is ALL IN financially supporting my business, a best friend that is along for whatever ride on which I choose to take her, a sister-in-law that supports my adventure more than any other person in my life and is possibly the most determined to help make my dream come true. On top of that, I have a church that supports me, a pastor who has my back and helps God correct me when I need it (even when he doesn't realize he's doing it), and a relationship with the Lord that allows me to screw up and make a mess of things, learn my lesson, ask for forgiveness, and grow. When I get overwhelmed, it helps so much to look around me and know that, even if this doesn't work out, I am blessed abundantly, and I don't deserve it.
I am enjoying what I am doing, and I think it shows. I have always needed an outlet for my creativity and my overactive mind. This time I think I have found something that truly makes me happy. In this scenario, all I can do is promote my work and not worry about anything else. The devil fights hard, and I am certainly not going to do anything to help him when a battle. My son watches a movie that has this really awesome song in it. It says "We'll grow old, and we'll never be alone, and no matter where we roam, we'll be glorious." I have faith that no matter what happens, when my time is up, I will have fought the good fight and I will have finished the race...GLORIOUS!
I still desire your prayers, so keep them coming. Thank you to everyone that has trusted me to take your pictures. I appreciate your business and your support! You are appreciated more than you know.
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
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