Every day I am thankful God points me in the direction I should go. I am also humbled greatly when he has to tell me more than once....or more than 10 times. Still, every day He is giving me signs and warnings, I just have to let go of my stubbornness and listen. When I’m driving along and I see the sign that says “Watch for Ice,” and I know it’s cold outside, would I ever disregard the warning that someone took the time to give? Of course not! I get these feelings sometimes that things aren’t how they should be. I know that’s God telling me that. Sometimes, instead of voicing those feelings, I should be processing them internally. (Proverbs 29:11 A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise [man] keepeth it in till afterwards.) I’m not saying I should never speak my mind, but everyone has to be guided by the Lord in their own time, and it may not be the same time as me. Nevertheless, I am always thankful for His presence, and one day I hope to have the willpower to listen to Him on the first try.
Backing out of a situation is hard for me. I dedicate myself to things. Whether it’s a job, a task, or a relationship. I commit to it and do what I can to make it work. So, yea, bowing out it is hard. Being pushed out of a situation is even harder. It’s hard to accept when someone doesn’t accept me. I have to remind myself that if you don’t follow the signs, the alternative leads you somewhere for which you were never meant. (1 Corinthians 10:13. There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.)
Over time I’ve repeatedly felt the need to let go. I haven’t though. I have held on and clawed my way back up that rope and held tight, because letting go isn’t what I want. It doesn’t matter what I want, because whatever will be will be despite my wants. I’m fighting to climb a rope that’s severed and hanging by a thread. Whether I fight to get back to the top or not, that rope is still going to break, because it’s damaged. Do I want to be at the end of the rope when it breaks or at the top with much further to fall? Well that’s an easy answer now isn’t it? (Ecclesiastes 3:6-A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;)
This is me letting go. I’m handing my troubles over and walking away. I’ll hop down off this rope with my mind and heart still intact, and walk on to whatever God has in store for me. (Hebrews 12:1- Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset [us], and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,)
I have so much to be thankful for. Moving on is part of life. (Proverbs 3:5-6–Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.)
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