Ripple

Psalms 28:7 - The LORD [is] my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in Him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise Him.

I am guilty. I am always guilty. Jesus died for me because of that guilt. This time that feeling of guilt was unnecessary, though.

I have wanted to write for as long as I can remember. Two years ago I KNEW God was wanting me to write a book, but here I am two years later with nothing. My heart tells me this is what I will do,—it’s ultimate goal—but the time has not been right. All this time, I have wondered: am I not trusting God to help me author this book? The answer is actually not lack of trust this time. I do trust God. He’s in the driver’s seat, and I’m along for the ride on this one.

Two years ago when I actually called a publisher, I was pretty vague about my plan, because it was void of form. It was a lot of things all piled into one mess. I couldn’t get it to take shape in my head. So, for two years every time the publishing house called or emailed, I avoided. I literally wouldn’t answer the phone. I would stand and stare frozen with shame, doubt, fear, and anxiety. That was the devil, but the lack of form to this project of my heart wasn’t the devil. It was God.

”...And then the spirit of God moved on the face of the waters.” (Genesis 1:2) I have always pictured the moment God moved. I picture darkness and deathly quiet. I am talking about the kind of quiet that makes it feel so loud. Then, from seemingly nowhere, there is a ripple and the sound of water. I see the ripple in the darkness and feel the heaviness of impending greatness. I feel the power of His existence within the words He speaks next: “Let there be light.” I felt the ripple of His spirit last night in my soul. He spoke out loud and into existence the path before me. His spirit is moving and the devil is going to fight. I feel honored, because I don’t mind helping the Lord make waves.

Pray for us and what we are going to do. If it’s of God it can’t be wrong. When you know, you know. This is of God.

Exodus 14:14 - The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.