I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: I take on WAY too much sometimes. It’s part of being a mom and—really—it’s just part of who I am. I can say one thing for sure. My kids always come first. They know it (even though they don’t always appreciate it, but I hope one day they will). At the end of the day, having a lot of irons in the fire is having a lot of opportunities. I hope to use my opportunities wisely.
Sometimes my anxiety kind of overwhelms me, and I know how unhealthy that is. Then, there are times when I sit and think about how good I’ve got it. I’m sort of there this morning. It is a little weird because I was having a pity party yesterday while cleaning house.
I have read that waking up and counting your blessings and thanking God for those gifts puts your mind in a different perspective. I challenge all of you reading this to start doing that. It really does work.
I am sure that if you are reading this, it’s likely that you’ve read some of my previous blogs. If that’s the case, there was one that I wrote about a year and half ago on a day when I was feeling particularly sorry for myself. On that day, I was hopeless. On that day, my self confidence and self worth were basically non-existent. Let me say this. I am responsible for allowing myself to feel that way, but I can admit that outside variables can add to that feeling. My hope is that I never ever make someone else feel the way that I felt that day. I felt bad enough that day that it followed me over the next year or so. Today I am vowing to not let that sadness and insecurity rule me anymore. I’m going to list my blessings.
First, I have my family. We have ups and downs, and we have a lot of work we need to do to get in God’s will, but I have them. I’m blessed in that alone.
Next, I have a friend and a mom who I know pray for me. My friend Amy Elkins doesn’t know what it means to know that she is in my corner and asking God to keep His hand on me. She knows how I struggle with my weight, and she has prayed for me to get motivated and to have the WANT to get healthy. Since she told me that she has been praying for that (In April or May), I have lost 33 lbs. 33 pounds that held me back and kept me down are gone. My mom prays for me too. I know that’s an obvious thing, but who knows me better than she does? Who knows my heart better than the one who had a hand in creating it? Her prayers are the prayers of a mother’s love, and I’m sure that God pays special attention to those.
I have a lucrative business. I can use my business for good. As I have said before, I know my value and my skill. It’s worth something. Because I know that, I can actually make some money to supplement our income and still fulfill all my Mom Roles. How great is that? I don’t have to sacrifice one for the other! God did that for me. He made my dream a reality. His sole intent was for me to use what He gave me to glorify Him. I had better get to it!
These are BIG blessings. There are so many other blessings that I should never forget about or look over. I have a roof over my head. I have a loyal husband who loves me. I have food on the table. I have friends and family that are always there. I have a comfortable bed that allows me the rest I need to face the days. I know these things are things that not everyone is fortunate enough to have. I hope to never take these things for granted, because I know I am undeserving.
Start your day being thankful and maybe you’ll not be oblivious to the abundance of things going your way. Maybe you won’t feel that pang of jealousy that can ruin your life. Maybe you won’t feel those “destroy or be destroyed” feelings that makes you act ugly. Maybe you’ll start fulfilling your purpose and stop being stagnant like I felt myself becoming. When God moves, the devil fights. I forgot to make sure I was prepared for the battle. I won’t be making that mistake again.
Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil -Ephesians 6:11
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